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I started at first by beating my head off the wall as a child, then I moved to pulling out my hair. I remember this because my mom and dad where so embarassed to take me out so they starting shaving my hair and got my ears pierced because they were tired of people calling me a boy.  Then it went to me washing my hands after everything I thouched. I would wash them so much that they would bleed and be raw. Then I started cutting myself at the age of 12. I still cut myself from time to time but not as much. As I'm in a profession that everyday I get burnt from welding and the cures the need to cut as much.   And during all this I tried to seek help but when I tried to mention it as a teen they thought I was doing it for attention. As a adult I tried but they threatened to take my daughter away from me. 

In my idealized world I would have liked to have a kind and understanding person help me through it...but I've encountered everything else but that, haha. I've had people that merely treat it like any other wound; that speak of "it" and "you" rather distantly. I've seen sarcastic people that joked a lot about it. I've seen therapists who was very serious and grave about it, probably reacting from their own fear. I've had others make a huge deal and played the guilt card. But I prefer the people that were calm and collected over the emotional ones. The reason know all this is because few years ago there was this huge intervention from many different people to help me...that's how I got to experience so many different personalities trying to "fix" me. 

I have. I had to get stitches in my wrist once. The medical people I dealt with were all very caring and gentle. I felt very safe with them, and they were condesending or making me feel little or stupid. There have been many other times when i have been sent to doctors for one thing, but then they noticed the wounds or scars. I had an already frightening and horrible hosptialization for an anxiety attack get the added stress of doctors bringing up the fresh burns on my wrist.